“I call heaven and earth to witness against you today, that I have set before you life and death, the blessing and the curse. So choose life in order that you may live, you and your descendants, by loving the Lord your God, by obeying His voice, and by holding fast to Him; for this is your life and the length of your days, that you may live in the land which the Lord swore to your fathers, to Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, to give them.” – Deuteronomy 30:19-20
Dear WordPress Family,
Today I contemplate my abundant life; the life given to me as a gift from God. A life of restitution and virtue. A life of sin and sorrow. For how can I celebrate this life without recognizing all of the choices I make with free will; the laughter from following God’s Word but also the tears from following my inherent conspires.
This abundant life, a gift, has offered me so many opportunities to listen to God with the ears of my heart; with love.
Over the summer of 2016 I was faced with a transgression. My husband and I got separated. It was devastating; especially the spiritual experience that followed right after the separation. I am still learning to pray my goodbyes. To let go and let God.
How may I be redeemed? God has a plan for me. He sees all, knows all and does all. He is my Father in Heaven and will nurture my soul so that one day I will be able to live a wholehearted eternal life.
I have faith.
And then in November 2016 my then four year old son was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia (ALL) after several months of misdiagnosis from his pediatrician. He was so close to death when he was diagnosed. We thought this is when he would be called home to Heaven. My whole being shook and cried out for him.
It has been eight months since he was diagnosed and he is now in remission and on a maintenance plan for the next three years.
This last year has drained me but not of faith. I continue to see and hear God everywhere I am. He continues to lead me and shape my life abundantly.
It took me a year to write this post as I did not want to reflect upon these events and how I let myself lower into one of many months of living in a “dark night of the soul”. It has been exhausting and I need lifting. I need to start listening again.
There are so many experiences I have had over the past year that I need to process here. I hope to so do this year.
I am so grateful to have all of you here with me witnessing the Grace of God.
With Love and Peace,