Abundant Life

“I call heaven and earth to witness against you today, that I have set before you life and death, the blessing and the curse. So choose life in order that you may live, you and your descendants, by loving the Lord your God, by obeying His voice, and by holding fast to Him; for this is your life and the length of your days, that you may live in the land which the Lord swore to your fathers, to Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, to give them.” – Deuteronomy 30:19-20

Dear WordPress Family,

Today I contemplate my abundant life; the life given to me as a gift from God.  A life of restitution and virtue.  A life of sin and sorrow.  For how can I celebrate this life without recognizing all of the choices I make with free will; the laughter from following God’s Word but also the tears from following my inherent conspires.

This abundant life, a gift, has offered me so many opportunities to listen to God with the ears of my heart; with love.

Over the summer of 2016 I was faced with a transgression.  My husband and I got separated.  It was devastating; especially the spiritual experience that followed right after the separation.  I am still learning to pray my goodbyes.  To let go and let God.

How may I be redeemed?  God has a plan for me.  He sees all, knows all and does all.  He is my Father in Heaven and will nurture my soul so that one day I will be able to live a wholehearted eternal life.

I have faith.

And then in November 2016 my then four year old son was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia (ALL) after several months of misdiagnosis from his pediatrician.  He was so close to death when he was diagnosed.  We thought this is when he would be called home to Heaven.  My whole being shook and cried out for him.

It has been eight months since he was diagnosed and he is now in remission and on a maintenance plan for the next three years.

This last year has drained me but not of faith.  I continue to see and hear God everywhere I am.  He continues to lead me and shape my life abundantly.

It took me a year to write this post as I did not want to reflect upon these events and how I let myself lower into one of many months of living in a “dark night of the soul”.  It has been exhausting and I need lifting.  I need to start listening again.

There are so many experiences I have had over the past year that I need to process here. I hope to so do this year.

I am so grateful to have all of you here with me witnessing the Grace of God.

With Love and Peace,



The Wilderness


Now John himself had a garment of camel’s hair and a leather belt around his waist; and his food was locusts and wild honey. – Matthew 3:4

The young ones flee to the wilderness. They have heard through whispers that is where Greatness resides.

They go to the wilderness, ushering through the clumps of fearsome rocks and sandy soil, to rest with the old ones; the abbas and ammas, the ones that wholly listen with the ears of their hearts.

They pursue a life less lived. A life brimming with raw honey, locusts, pungent wine, prayer and unity. A life they dare not dream but a life all the same prominent in love ever after.

Love not in the sense of promiscuity but of innocence—that of the beginning—in which the golden rays of the guiding stars in Heaven shone.

In this wilderness they find a knowledge uncanny akin to their childhood faith, one that swallows them whole with wonderment.

They vow to the aflame that is growing from the Breath ever so gently exhaled on the spark from within.

It is then that they are let loose.

They have grown from the young and unmindful to a wise and timeless tribe.

They witness the Holy, in all the living world—even the flesh—and that which is illimitable.

It is through the wilderness that they are able to make their way back to the widely known.

To the place often traveled.

Not to subdue or go back to ways of the common but to spread the passion of goodness.

Lead by righteousness.

It is in this worldly place they are able to free themselves from the binds that constrain them. The binds that had permanently mark their tender skin—transforming them into the wake of tomorrow.

They know from their rest that they will be able to flourish and witness the Holy in the darkest of shadows; within the greatest cities, across the vastness of plains and in the depths of the sea.

It is there that their light will shine brighter than ever before, dripping with a thick and rich solace.

This same solace will spread with glory; pulsating all the different colors of glimmering warmth that has been cast and revealed through a crystal so clear.

And in that glimmering warmth a remarkable Presence is acknowledged.

In that moment the Truth will be known; no hesitation, no questioning.

Purely cell-splitting willingness and awareness.

In the darkness.

In the night.

In the wilderness.

Amongst all that ever was.

That is where Greatness will transcend all; ever breathing, light-giving in the stillness like wintertide.


With Love,


A Christian FAITH with New Age Abilities

Christian Faith

“So faith comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ.” – Romans 10:17

Hello fellow WordPress bloggers and readers!

I heard and recognized a message from God.  The message was on November 22, 2014 and I didn’t recognize it for what it was until today.

The message being that I needed to read and re-read a particular article.  I found this amazing article on the Vatican website.  It was written on February 3, 2003.  I’d like to share it with you now: 

Jesus Christ the Bearer of Water – A Christian Reflection on the New Age.

This article reflects New Age and Christianity.  Plus, they reference centres that we can attend to understand New Age through the Church; yes, I said it–through the Church.  (I’ve been in contact with the Office of Pontifical Council for Culture and they sent me something to share with you, a link to a database that lists out centres around the world.)    

My dear friend wrote to me in response to this article, saying, “Yes there truly is help out there without anyone looking for glorification.”  I completely agree with that statement. Everyone that I’ve ever met that was trying to teach me about my gifts were actually trying to glorify their work and not God’s work.  I even got caught up in promoting another’s work; which ended up taking the glory away from God.  I have learned to be more cautious when taking pity on someone whom doesn’t believe their work is getting the recognition they believe it deserves.  In my experience, if God wants work to be knowing then everything will line up fast and close to flawless.

Like I said earlier, I first read this article on November 22, 2014.  However, it wasn’t until today that I realized finding this article was the message I needed from God.  It’s the truth and you know what they say about the truth?  It will set you free.  

Let me explain how this article was a message (I couldn’t have this experience happen and not share it with my dear friends and readers because this is HUGE.  Plus, I hope this information helps someone out there):

Over the past year, I’ve been in search of answers to lifelong questions.  Many family members and close friends told me that I needed to just listen–REALLY listen–to hear God.  Well, I finally figured out how to not only listen but also recognize when He speaks.  When He answers me it happens quite naturally, except that time seems to stop and the words He wants me to hear (whether it’s in a movie, on the radio or from the mouth of my friends and family) are emphasized, almost as if they are being said in BOLD.  It’s in that moment that I know that a message is being given to me.  Well, that and I get chills all over my body.

Well, that happened as I was watching The Journey Home with Father Bill Kneemiller right around 45 minutes when they discussed the article Jesus Christ the Bearer of Water – A Christian Reflection on the New Age.  

At that moment, I knew this article was significant and that it would help me and others find answers.  What did I get from this article?  The Church really does care for us and wants us to awaken.  They don’t want us to be ignorant or oblivious to the temptations in the world. And that is why they opened Catholic Cultural Centres around the world.

My favorite part of this article (believe me, it was hard to narrow it down) was this:

It is extremely important to check the credentials of people, groups and institutions claiming to offer guidance and information on New Age. In some cases what has started out as impartial investigation has later become active promotion of, or advocacy on behalf of, “alternative religions”. Some international institutions are actively pursuing campaigns which promote respect for “religious diversity”, and claim religious status for some questionable organisations. This fits in with the New Age vision of moving into an age where the limited character of particular religions gives way to the universality of a new religion or spirituality. 

I have never met anyone that can offer guidance and information on New Age without promoting themselves, an alternate path away from church, or without keeping records of personal discussions to be included in their future publications.

You might ask why I would be so happy to find these centres?  Well, like I stated in a previous post: I sense spirits.  I’ve come along way since I started searching for answers, but I want to understand it in more depth, connect with like-minded people and in a Christian way from a good source.  I have faith in the Church and I believe they will be able to guide me better than any other organization.  So, I’m going to forget about new age circles, people that are looking for self-glorification and head to my local Catholic Cultural Centre. The reason I do this: I don’t want to be lured into false worship.

Thanks for reading.