“Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.”- Maya Angelou
To me, action and willingness are one in the same. Meaning, if I’m not willing then I won’t take action. As you know, actions speak louder than words. My family and friends need to know they can count on me. I need to know I can count on me. When I hit rock bottom emotionally, spiritually and physically, I proceeded to go around the corner (my shortcut) to discover a dead-end . I lost my trust in myself and so did family and friends. It was in that moment that I found the willingness and courage to turn around and climb back up into a happy and healthy life; free from the terror of my dependencies.
These actions shape who I am as an individual. As an individual, it’s in my power to be the person I am willing to be today. For today, I am willing to commit to my food and exercise plan, my reflection time, writing a gratitude list, meetings/events and services. I also have a willingness to accept responsibility when it comes to embracing my feelings.
There are many actions I am willing to do on my journey through life except the willingness to be willful. Being willful is what knocked me to the bottom and kicked me to the dead-end. I don’t want to go to that dark place again considering that I’m enjoying the beauty and freedom that my willingness brings. Furthermore, I’m loving the profound relationships that have been created by my willingness to be honest. I believe all this to be from the grace of my higher power.
A change is made with a willingness–regardless of if it is out of guilt, honor happiness–to get out there, set routines, set boundaries and be honest. Believe me, in the beginning my willingness was only done out of guilt. However, it’s encouraging to know that the feeling of guilt eventually turns into happiness.
Thank you for reading.